Now I know, not many people read this… actually… probably nobody reads this. But I’m in the mood to write. So I will.

On December 7th, it snowed. It wasn’t much, and it didn’t even reach my house. It did reach my school, and I felt as if I was in a “winter wonderland” – I rarely experience snow. Last time I did was a long time ago, I was very little, and barely remember. Especially this much, and it may not be a lot to some, but it was enough to make me laugh and forget that it was cold (or maybe it wasn’t), and just to enjoy the snow. It was the start of a brilliant week.

Throughout the week, lucky things happened to me. I would be late and still find a parking spot. I’d be rather cheery, and not fall asleep in class. I became friends with new people, especially someone who’s made my days a lot brighter… it was a good week. I say it was a lucky week, even though I don’t completely believe in luck. We make our own luck, don’t we? Maybe the happiness I got from the snow on Monday spread throughout the week.

The next week was a bit more cluttered, but I was still happy. In fact, I’ve been very happy lately, more happy than normal. I may seem super hyper and happy, but really I’m not all that hyper and happy. I just am able to stand through the day without breaking down, being upset, or showing it. It’s not hard to fake a smile or laugh. But these past couple weeks, I didn’t need to. I was really happy. Smiling, enjoying things, even if I didn’t do so well on a test, made a mistake somewhere along the way, etc, I was still happy, I would be positive. “I still have two more tests! Lot’s of time!” or “I’ll study more next time!” – I mean, why on earth should I let school frustrate me? Make me so upset? I don’t even like it that much, yet it’s controlling my emotions. So no, I’m not going to start failing classes and focusing on other things, I’m just not going to let my life be controlled by school.

And today, I made cookies. I covered them and green and red/pink frosting. I drove to my friend’s house and we had a Christmas party. (though I’m not exactly christian.. I have my own religion, one nobody else has, ever!!) Amazing meal, desert, games, movies, and lot’s of laughing. Kind of a rant following, but who needs drugs and alcohol and all that when you can be ‘high on laughter’! I definitely enjoyed the laughing. :)

It wasn’t a perfect day, unfortunately. I ran into some problems, almost did break down. Mistakes aren’t fun at all. But no worries, I’m calm now. It was a mistake, it’ll pass. It may look at me in the eye for a while but eventually I’ll forget it, or not care about it so much, like my mistakes in the past.

I think the snow did something to me, made me realize wow, the world is really beautiful. Because it is, isn’t it? When everything is covered in a blanket of white… Things seem so much more… fantastic… wonderful… happy. :) So enjoy the holidays, be warm and drink lots of hot cocoa (or coffee with cocoa in my case!). Meet with your family and friends, and be happy. Ignore all your mistakes, no matter how many you make. Who cares if it’s Christmas, Hanukkah, or whatever other occasion. It’s just a nice time where we have a vacation from work, being stressed. A time where we can spend with eachother. Happiness is key. :)